I’ve been trying so hard to lose this weight but it’s just not working. I’ve been seeing a personal trainer, going to the gym twice a week and maintaining a decent diet.
I mess up on days when my chronic illness flares up, because all I’ll want is something cold and creamy like ice cream. I’m so disgusted with myself, I don’t know how to fix this. I’m relapsing and diving back into bad habits. I’ve been starving myself and purposely avoiding things my body needs because I feel like I must punish myself for my bad food choices. I hate myself so much. I’m constantly comparing my progress to normal people’s progress and it makes me suicidal. Why can’t I just lose it.... why can other people succeed so perfectly but I’m constantly screwing up? Why do I need to punish myself for eating badly occasionally? I’ve made little to no progress and I’ve been trying for a YEAR to lose weight. I get extremely jealous when I see perfectly skinny attractive people at the gym working out effortlessly, meanwhile I’m getting chronic illness flare ups and sobbing at my reflection. I’m a pathetic wreck. My self image issues has taken over my life. I’ll never be happy until I’m skinny. Sorry I sound so dramatic 😓 my weight has affected my 21 years of existence and I’m so unhappy with my appearance.
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