I’ve struggled with my weight for a very long time. I’ve succeeded in losing it before, but gained it all back and more through depressive episodes. Trying again and again never goes well as I’m just not mentally in a great space most of the time, bouncing between various disordered eating, and now COVID has forced me in with my parents, it’s even harder to eat well (they’re not even close to stars of health).
I decided over a month ago I would try an elimination diet as I’ve had various stomach issues that I’ve never been able to pinpoint, and I felt this would be a great option for me to weed anything out. There’s no restrictions on calories so I had one less thing to think about, and I felt it would be a good way to learn new ways in preparing veggies- which I usually loathe.
Over the month I’ve been researching foods, looking at recipes, and trying new things out (and being pleasantly surprised at the results)! I was discussing with my bf how nervous I was to do something which needed total obedience for a few months, and how I knew I had it in me, but I’m often not strong enough to resist temptation. He told me how he believed I could do it, and I’ve been working hard getting here, then made the comment along the lines of “You also need to eat better in general so you can live longer! You need to eat better so you can be with me and live to 101.” At the time I was so taken aback as no one has ever voiced concern over my health without me voicing my own concerns beforehand- even then only receiving half-hearted agreement. It was almost a disbelief, and I mentioned how I feel like many people do probably worry, but are afraid of hurting my feelings. Now writing this, I’m bawling like a baby. Even knowing that people may worry, having someone say it really just made me realize how bad things have gotten, and how much I need to really change.
I still don’t know if I’m strong enough most of the time... but I truly do need to change. If others are worried about me then I should honestly worry about me too.
[link] [comments]
source https://www.reddit.com/r/loseit/comments/isyw3z/for_the_first_time_ever_someone_has_shown_concern/
No comments:
Post a Comment