Here we go again. 5'4", CW 186 lbs, GW 130 lbs.
Day 1.
Ugh. Seriously so over this nonsense. I'm trying to just put the past behind me, but man, it's hard. A few years ago I got myself down to 140 lbs. Then I had my first kid and gained it all back. Then I lost maybe 20 lbs. Then I had my second kid and gained even more back. Now I'm back up to where I was when I first got married many moons ago.
Over the past six months I've started and restarted and restarted and restarted. Bought a treadmill last fall. Tried keto, tried 4hb, tried calorie counting. Went on new meds that messed it all up. Switched meds that didn't work as well, but at least I was able to lose 5 lbs that time. Then I gained it back.
I'm excited for this change, but I'm also so frustrated. Like, how do I constantly do this to myself? I know this is all due to my depression...the weight gain and my self talk, which I'm improving. So forgive me if I seem dour about things, but I've learned that it's better for me mentally if I get my emotions out and discuss them rather than "trucking on" like I used to.
I'm really hopeful this time though. Truly. Not in that overexcited "I'm going to conquer the world!" sort of feeling that we all get when we start anew. But rather, it's a feeling that slowly, with time, I'll see some results. Slowly, I'll change my habits. I feel more like the turtle this time than the hare. And I think that's a good thing.
So here's to day 1. First goal is to hit today's calorie count and no more. That's all. Just have to take it one day at a time, right? Keep your fingers crossed.
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