I fucked up, you guys.
I'm M26, 6'4". I went from 300lbs - 197lbs in 2018. It was largely because of this sub. Just cico, plain and simple. I had been fat all my life. It changed my life and I became a different, more confident, hotter person. I really felt young for the first time.
The last year and a half have been hell. I have been intensely depressed. I've used food to cope. I am now at 262lbs from 196 before the pandemic began.
I have had some life experiences that have taught me a lot. But I also realized I need help, so in a few weeks I'm seeing a therapist for a long overdue appointment. I'm going to start healing again.
Over the pandemic I learned that my previous motivations to lose weight and be fit were empty and pretentious.
My motivation to get fit now has more to do with care about myself and my well being, as well as my future.
This time around, I'm going to incorporate weight lifting into my routine off the bat, so I have a better shape when I'm slimmer. I have a routine and have met with a Trainor, I just need to be consistent. I can now that my gym is open again.
I don't think I'm going to obsess about the numbers in my Fitbit this time around, that lost its novelty. But I will keep using MyFitnessPal.
Well, here I am again, at the starting line. Looking at fat in parts of my body I didn't think I'd have again. Not able to wear my slim clothes. Not confident enough to have sex. But this time it is different, because I know it's possible and relatively easy if I'm just consistent over time and not too restrictive.
Here we go again. In the morning I'm filling my freezer with frozen veggies.
In a year, I am making a life change where I need to be physically fit. I need to be comfortable enough to go through a physical in front of others in my underwear, and shower naked with other men in a bootcamp situation for a couple months. So this year I'm really working to be confident and in good shape for that - because I know I can with time and consistency.
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