I don't know if anyone would care or be interested in a story from an unknown person on the internet. But I just want to share my story and share what I went through. You may read this, you may not. Either way, here's my story. (Sorry in advance for an incoherent mess and bad English) (tl;dr at the bottom)
I was born in a developing country in South East Asia (Vietnam to be specific). Growing up here, we don't have many sources of entertainment beside movies on VHS and later illegal DVD. Martial art or kungfu is THE most popular genre. Internet wasn't a thing untill early 2000s, so VHS and DVD are the only 2 sources of fun I have (other than some physical activities, but who want to do that, lol). So when watching too much martial art movies, the role model or the desired body form that every kid dreams about is basically Bruce Lee, Jackie Chan, Jet Li etc.
So everyone was skinny (easier to get 6 pack, they thought). I don't know how and why, but people back then and when I was growing up really hate fat people. Fat people would be making fun of, got picked on.
When I around 6 y.o, being a dumb fuck acting without thinking of others' feeling, I also join the people and made fun of fat people. But when I reach age 8, karmar strikes back like a fucking truck. I started gaining weight. Before, I was just like every other kids in a developing country, which is a little bit fatter than a skeleton. I was getting fatter and fatter, I was 60kg when I reach 9 years old (60kg for an Asian kid in a developing country is already so fat). People around me start making fun of my belly, my body. I was on the other side of the joke. I was so sad, but luckily I still have some friends so it's not that bad. There's one memory that devastated me untill now whenever I think back. It was my 9th Tet Holiday (Lunar New Year) is when every kid get new clothes to celebrate the new year. My mom searched the entire market and could find me a pair of jeans that fits. Holyshit was I sad. Can you imagine being so fat the the whole market doesn't have a jeans in your size? As a kid, that shit kills whatever confident I had left.
I kept on being fat through middle school and high school. I still got made fun of, but it's better now. I learnt not to care about them (But they still hurt, lol). I thought I was cursed with a fat curse, that I could never lose any weight. I've always dreamt of having a nice body so I can wear my clothes and look good in it. But as a dumb highschool kid, I don't know much about dieting or working out. Beside, who need going outside with a fat body when you can hide in your house and play video games on your PC? Amirite? (Late 2000s is when internet and PC start to become popular).
It wasn't untill Uni that I figured it out, if I burn more calories that the input calories, I can burn fat without doing much (awesome, just what I need). I start going on diet, starve my self, doing a bunch of other things. But not much happened (mostly because I was eyeballing my calories). So I still think that I'm cursed and give up. Another reason I give up is that when I was in Uni. Being fat is not something too surprising anymore. People doesn't care much about fat people. Despite that I always compare myself and other people (the Asian mindset I guess). I look at myself belly and weep. I just want to be fit so at the very least I can wear normal clothing and blend into the background.
Now fresh graduate from Uni, got a job. And I start trying to lose sone fat. I seriously count my calories, going to the gym. It's around 1 month now and I've made some progress. I went from 80kg to 75kg. (Also the gym's scale fuck me by showing that I was 70kg a few weeks ago). I know that I still got a long way to go. And It'll take even longer for me to gain back any self-confident I had before. I'm only 22 so at least I know that I'm still young and nothing is ever too late.
This whole mess of a story is brought to you by an unknown Vietnamese kid. Thank you for reading, or maybe you didn't. In that case, meh ¯_(ツ)_/¯.
tl;dr: got fat as a kid and trying to shred some fat as an udult.
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