I've been studying all day and I really wanted to go all out and buy $30 worth of gluten free bakery goods (cupcakes, cookies, cake, etc). I didn't.
Instead, I treated myself to chipotle and a pint of halo top. I know that it's still not amazing but compared to before I think it's a step up.I have a long and hard history of binge eating disorder it was becoming a serious problem. My highest weight was 195 (20F 5'5), I was so close to 200. Now I am 185. I just want to lose 15 lbs by 2020 and I will make it my goal. Baby steps.
I am committed to changing my lifestyle. Not a diet. I want to be able to say " I don't eat that shit " not "that looks so fucking good but im dieting rn".
I want to be okay with feeling hungry sometimes... I want to crave salads and vegetables, not chocolate or caramel or ice cream.
I watched a documentary and so this was a reality check for me. I really really just need to focus on being a healthy girl because I cant be having a heart attack or diabetes in the middle of me trying to go to law school....
Alright, thanks for listening if you did. I would love words of encouragement or advice or anything. If you did not read then that's totally fine.
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