I was shopping for new clothes because most of the stuff I have are already worn out. When I saw my reflection in the fitting room, I felt disgusted by what I saw. You see, I never really had a good relationship with food. My weight always goes up and down.
When I was in college, I was very fit and active but started to gain shit ton of weight because of depression. I guess I used food as comfort. Last year, I was 190 lbs. For my 5'3 frame, I am considered obese. I already thought i was fat back then. The diagnosis of PCOS also didn't help. I though I would lose the weight easily, the way I used to before but guess what? I just gained more weight.
Right now, I am at 207 lbs. My goal weight is 120 lbs. I have no other medical conditions except for my PCOS and my obgyne is forcing me to lose weight. I dont want to be fat anymore. Im 25 years old, I dont want to be fat forever. I cant even look at myself in the mirror anymore.
I promise I will do my best this time around. I am so scared of what would happen to me, the health repercussions if I dont lose the fat. I would really appreciate some insight. Sorry for the rant. Have a nice day.
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