I’ve (29 F) hit a plateau recently, and though I’m not proud of it, I have to keep trying.
My partner’s family always hosts Thanksgiving. It’s a lovely giant family, and I’m thankful to be a part of it 8 years on. They’re intense foodies (sorry—I hate that term), and always go hard on Thanksgiving. My partner is currently sous-viding both duck confit and beefs ribs. They’ll also be two turkeys and ham, not to mention dozens of sides. I’m making deviled eggs and bringing our whipped cream canister we snagged from working at a coffee shop a decade ago (the kiddos love it). Not exactly healthy, but the deviled eggs have been my go to for holidays and they go over well. I’ve toyed with making a healthier option, but want to just make this easy on me, and I hate to bring anything that needs to go in the oven.
So here’s the thing. When I met his family, I was at a very healthy weight and didn’t think about eating in front of others. I flitted around, without a care at all. My partner and I moved to a new city a few years ago for his career. He’s blossomed while I’ve floundered. I gained 40-50 lbs (I’m 5’3) in roughly a year, and have struggled since with binging, exercising, eating well, binging. I’m extremely self conscious now, which escalated knowing that despite his family’s love of food, they’ve all lost quite a bit of weight while I gained. My partner has told me in the past about both his parents confusing his relationship with food and pointing out his weight as a teen. This just compounds my anxiety, especially since we’ll be visiting my family the day after (another struggle for a different post). His family absolutely won’t saying anything to me, but I do feel people giving me a look sometimes (maybe in my head).
Does anyone else feel similarly? Does anyone have any tactics to keep anxiety at bay? And what/how do you eat without feeling terrible about yourself in front of family? Thanks, and sorry for this not being upbeat.
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