Im 17 M 5’5 125 lbs. I got all the way down to my weight, by counting calories and staying at a deficit for 8 months. I stayed consistent and legit didn’t slip up on my diet for 1 day.
I used to be 145 lbs, and I didn’t look super overweight, but unfortunately carried a lot of feminine fat patterns , which upset me. I look so much better now, I look healthy and muscular, and am pretty much currently at my ideal body type, except id like a bit more muscle.
I am absolutely so afraid to gain any fat again because the difference my loss has made on the way i view myself is astronomical. So, I stay at a deficit according to my Fitbit, and apparent TDEE, but I have stopped losing weight so maybe I’m eating close to maintaining? iDRk. I eat about 1,800-2,100 depending on activity, but generally still get 10-15,000 steps even with my injury rn. I am on my feet alot and before my injury was SUPER active.
But now I’m rethinking everything because i am an elite hockey player. Last week I got slammed into the boards, and broke my collarbone. It wasn’t even a massive hit, the guy just hit me at a bad angle and was double my size. There were so many close calls before this. I obviously can’t change my height, but I cant help think that this wouldn’t have happened if I still had an extra 20 lbs on me. I mean think about how much extra force it takes to push that amount of weight. In fact I’ve never really felt fragile on the ice, until I lost the weight and started feeling like I was getting tossed around like a stickman. I have great balance and Im not terrible at taking hits, but the truth is most guys hitting me weight 160-210 lbs and they r so tall my head is by their shoulder. I was working out consistently before this on the weights, but didn’t really put on much muscles because of my deficit. My muscles did get a bit bigger though. Well now im pretty much out for 8-12 weeks, lost my hockey, and just feel like shit.
I don’t know how to go about after my injury bulking up, but that wont happen before i get back on the ice no matter what. It takes time to build muscle that would make a significant difference. Im afraid if I go back out there once I’m healed, ill just hurt myself again because i feel so fragile and small. Im obsessed with calories and food now, but Im just not willing to sacrifice my self image and confidence to have a couple extra lbs on me on the ice.
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