Week 15

Hello

I 25 F 5ft 3inches SW 237.6lbs last week i was 221lbs just weighed in at 223lbs.

I know I haven’t put on 2lbs its just water weight from the weekend it will come back off again .

Last weekend was pay day and bank holiday weekend all in one . So i ate delicious junk food went over on calories a couple days but not enough to put 2lbs on . Lifes not prefect and im making lifestyle changes meaning il have todo this forever so im not going to feel bad over food which I wanted and to be honest was fcking delicious.

Just because im trying to lose weight doesnt mean im going to stop myself enjoying those moments in life where food is a part of the enjoyment. Il just track it its that simple . Still only drinking water which i think helps to offset the junk in a small way lol is that wishful thinking ?

As for my may mission to stop part 1 of my self soothing behaviour. I havent done it since friday im proud of myself that im doing it .it isnt easy . I should explain iv had a stuffed animal toy since i was months old i sleep with it when i go downstairs i take it with me and it comes with if i ever have any medical appointments . Im nearly 26 im a adult okay im still sleeping with it but im trying to break this ingrown behaviour. Most days I want to go grab it but i stop myself as im trying to improve myself slowly . This isnt going to be easy or quick but im determined to do this .

Every week im slowly undoing more and more brain knots which is causing things to come to the surface that iv ran from or tried to block but now is the time to face it head on . When the worlds opened up more in a few months il try to be brave and go doctors to ask about therapy which scares me to even think about let alone do .

Also i found i love rice cakes mainly because i can get cheese flavoured and chocolate covered ones . Low cal and taste yummy which means i can have a snack .

Hopefully by june im below 220lbs cross everything.

Thanking for reading .

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