M/19/5’8 SW: 230 CW:160lbs(10lbs up from lowest) GW: 150lbs
So at the end of December 2020 I had lost a total of 81 pounds my lowest being 149.5 but i round up to 80lbs lost. I was on cloud 9 because I thought I only had like 10 more pounds to finally get my dream goal which is abs. However I got met the reality of loose skin. My goal was never to build a shit ton of muscle, i just wanted to be skinny with abs.
I realized that that wasn’t an option anymore so I embarked in a fitness journey to gain a little more muscle b cause I was still training throughout the fat loss. I wanted to recomp( stay the same size but build muscle.) however no matter what I did my abs were not going to show.
I had my first ever crying fit in March. Every month after that just got worse and worse and at some pint I started binging again. Now I’m up 10 pounds since March and steadily going back up. I am having the skin removed but in my mind all I can see if fat. I can’t justify it being skin because of what people have told me and my age but the doctor ensured it was skin.
Anyways today was going to be the day I hoped back on the horse and started loosing that ten pounds but I binged again because when I got to the gym I saw these ripped as guys and just thought to myself no matter what I do my stomach will not stop being disproportionate to my body. I don’t know why I’m so hard on myself or why the skin affects me so much.:: any insight?
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source https://www.reddit.com/r/loseit/comments/phhqvw/i_wonder_why_loose_skin_has_affected_me_mentally/
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