Enough is enough. I’m 260 pounds right now. My highest was 300 and the lowest I ever got was 205-210. And today I accurately counted my calories for the first time since early 2020, and realized I’ve been eating 1000 calories over what I should be. No wonder I gained that 50 pounds back.
Over the months I’d get on the scale just to helplessly see it rising once again and feel so ashamed. I lost all this weight, and here I am again? Why can’t I make the changes? It sent me into a depression and didn’t let up for months, with no change in sight.
A lot of my family know that I’d lost weight before and every time I get asked what I weigh now, I’ve just felt so ashamed and give the old “I haven’t checked in awhile” excuse. Or even be honest and say “I think gained 15 pounds”, when I knew it was actually closer to 50.
I’ve had enough with feeling ashamed and helpless in my eating. Uncomfortable in my own skin. I want to feel proud of myself again. I want to feel happier!
Thanks for listening Reddit, I really had to get this out of my head and hold myself accountable you know? Today it starts. Back on that counting train!
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