I’ve been gradually losing like 1-2, sometimes 3 pounds a week but not in the healthiest way. I have severe ADHD, recently (and finally) diagnosed 3 months ago. While stimulant medications have helped SO much with my overall mood, binge eating disorder, depression, anxiety, and general focus and social life, I forget to eat too much. I feel like my overall appetite has changed as well because this happens even when I don’t take my medication. I also forget, am too busy/in a rush, or eat too little (my appetite in the morning sucks) before I take my med which results in me throwing up, but this only happens roughly 1x a week and has gotten better since I keep protein snacks in the car). Before anyone says anything I do not have an eating disorder, it is 100% from nausea induced by the med. This usually occurs when I’m in a situation that I can’t eat food but had to take it, like at clinical (12 hour shifts) or school (we can’t eat in the classroom due to covid so I can’t eat breakfast in class :( ). To fix this issue would involve getting up earlier to eat but I already don’t get enough sleep as it is.
I’m in my last semester of nursing school and have a ridiculous commute (40 min) to campus and then an hour commute to my clinical days. It was honestly easier last year when we were half online. Plus there is never-ending coursework, job applications, and interviews. My roommates are distracting as fuck, one is chronically ill so I try to spend time and help her with things and another one has a personality disorder so I’m constantly talking her down from insanity. They try their best to not bother me but it makes it difficult to do things for myself at home.My schedule is all over the place and there’s not any way to make it consistent as of right now, which makes establishing a proper exercise routine so hard. My boyfriend is sweet and helps cook and meal prep which has helped but I still have to spend a decent amount of time meal planning and cooking too.
I definitely move more than I used to but it’s really just walking. I would love to jog but haven’t been able to consistently get back into it. I was able to jog last year and enjoyed it. I haven’t this year because the times I’m actually able to exercise vary, and because of winter it will usually be nighttime/dark. I feel uncomfortable jogging then because I worry about tripping. Due to safety I also take my boyfriend on the night walks with me, but he doesn’t necessarily wanna jog, or if he’s up for it he never seems to want to do it as long as I do. I also want to strength train but have no gym access, however I have resistance bands and know I can do those and body weight exercises. I am just so tired by the time I’m at home or done with something so I only get to it maybe once a week. I know I am making excuses with this though, it’s so important to do strength training while losing weight. I can literally feel my muscle strength depleting but I’m just so fucking tired by the time that there is time that I don’t bother with it.
Other than this I’ve been making a conscious effort to eat healthier foods and don’t really eat crap anymore. However I know I’m not getting enough calories, like today all I’ve had is maybe 6oz of salmon and cauliflower rice, and some Greek yogurt with no desire to eat more and that’s probably like not even 1000 calories. I used to use MFP religiously and can sort of eyeball how much I’m having now, but using it now would just be another chore and not really help my issue.
I’m also a broke as fuck college student which plays a part in my food options, along with that I’ve been trying to eat more of a pescatarian diet because thinking about factory farming makes me really sad, so I’ve made it my moral goal to not eat red meat and I will rarely have chicken. I have bulk bags of things like chickpeas, lentils, and beans which are great but these take time to soak and cook, which I don’t usually have. I do try to make big batches and meal prep with them though! I just don’t eat them enough but I’m working on it. I also have PCOS so I am trying my best to avoid refined carbs and sugars. Because of these dietary changes I know I’m eating better nutritionally, just not enough. The only reason I’m not drastically losing weight is because I still struggle with BED though, although less frequently.
Anyway I know I am probably making excuses and can fit things in my schedule if I tried harder it was just kind of nice to vent here. I keep telling myself things will be easier after graduation, which it definitely will, but I am somewhat of a perfectionist and would like to have these issues sorted out now because I care about my health more than I ever used to. I haven’t been this low of a weight in probably 5 years (203 today, I’m 5’6 and highest was 246).
I’m approaching the “onederland” and it is just not how I wanted it to be. I want to deserve it!
Anyway thanks if you actually read all of this
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