22M, My goal weight is about 170. I was that weight in high school when I was my most confident and I think in large part due to depression I just gained and gained until I got to at least the heaviest I officially measured of 267. Any small amount of confidence I might've had was destroyed by my weight and my depression got worse and worse, so I ate and ate. A lot of you probably know the cycle unfortunately.
I'm still in the depths of depression but have managed to eat way less sugar (my biggest issue, when I got especially sad I'd pound desserts like it was my last day on earth) and occasionally can force myself to go for walks or on really rare occasions go to the gym. I haven't even been strictly counting calories all the time, just have tried to only eat at meals, almost entirely cut out sweets of any kind, and get light exercise when I'm not stuck in bed mentally.
Also have had to fight to be honest with myself and admit I was using alcohol and weed as crutches to not deal with certain things emotionally. Both of which also I think contributed a lot to my weight gain.
Honestly still feel bad, I don't feel like I look any different still, still wear the same XL shirts when I used to wear M or even sometimes S, still get winded going up the stairs sometimes, and most of all am still depressed as hell, but it felt good to see 237lbs on the scale today knowing I've gotten down 30 when at one point 5 seemed impossible.
I just want to see and feel changes myself other than just a number, I still feel like I look and feel the same physically and my negativity says I'm only 1/3 of the way there, but I wanted to share this somewhere
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source https://www.reddit.com/r/loseit/comments/mnbecx/officially_down_30lbs_60_to_go/
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