I LOVE working out. I love feeling the burn, feeling fit. I was 130lbs at 5'6" and felt awesome. Ate 1,200 every day without break, no sweets, no unhealthy foods. Realize now I ate too little and worked out too hard because even though I was confident in outfits I obsessed over my looks &I would be light headed super frequently.
Bf moved in. Quarantine hit. I've delved back into my depression.
Haven't worked out in months. I'm binge eating all over again. Making excuse after excuse. I feel stuck in a loop. I don't hate my body but I love how I was and I'm scared for my health. I'm 40 or even 50lbs up. Can't bring myself to eat right, & it's SO hard to say no when I'm offered tempting food. My bf loves eating out bc he doesn't eat that much so he can stay healthy weight. I binge eat and add eating out to it.
I feel so gross and sad. I don't hate my body but I'm ashamed at how I've let myself go. I was once so proud but I feel like I can't do anything.
Words of encouragement would be appreciated. I know I have to eat to fuel not to binge or purely restrict. I'm just at such a loss and depressed, anxious, paranoid. I'm at a really hard time but I know it will only get harder.
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