I gained a whole lot of weight because of an unhealthy relationship with food coupled with extreme anxiety and clinical depression. I was at 99.8kg (220lbs) and am currently sitting on 80kg (178.5lbs) at the moment about nine months later. I am super proud of what I’ve achieved so far, and in the process I’ve managed to get rid of toxic relationships and gain new healthy ones.
Recently, my anxiety is getting worse, and while I knew I wasn’t eating the best, today I realised I had fallen back into old habits. I know I am gaining weight again, and it’s severely affecting how I think but while I know what I have to do, and I know I can do it, I am having trouble fighting my impulses and find I have no motivation to go to the gym or even meal prep.
I’m unsure how to get myself into good habits again, and while I feel like I need support, I hate it every time my boyfriend asks me (gently) if I need to eat that or why didn’t I go to the gym. I feel like I can’t do this on my own this time, that I know what I want to do but like I need to be accountable to someone other than myself. Yet I can’t ask my family or friends because it makes me anxious and embarrassed.
I want this so badly, and I know I will get there but I want to stop this weight gain, I want to at least plateau before I have to start all over. I love seeing all the progress here. I hope one day I will post and tell y’all I made it to where I am healthy and as fit as I can be. Exercise is supposed to reduce anxiety, but it gives me it, so I guess I’m just going to have to deal with it.
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source https://www.reddit.com/r/loseit/comments/err721/having_severe_bounce_back_and_loss_of_motivation/
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