I feel trapped. CICO causes the same pattern every day - for months (years, on and off) I end up binge eating at night. If I manage to keep my limit, I'll binge over the weekend. When I do binge I just like NEVER feel full- I might lose a pound or two and if my willpower is especially strong I can keep it up for a week with several breaks, but then it collapses into the daily failure.
My issue is... if I don't count, I will gain weight. I might binge a little less, but the fat will slowly creep up. If I do count... I tend to stay in stasis, gain weight slowly as well, or go up and down in weight, with a slow trend toward gaining.
So here I am in the worst catch 22: try and fail every day - as I have been for a decade nearly. The psychological stress is terrible. The success is FLEETING, with things often getting worse for all the effort. However, if I give up, things just slowly get worse. I honestly feel out of control and have ventured into some MINOR self-harming (hitting self, punch walls, etc). I am so lost.
Any words of wisdom?
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