Started Today SW:208.4lbs GW: 150lbs
I’m 5’2”. Pretty heavily muscled but so unhappy with my physique. Former college athlete and I’ve always been heavy (went into college 181lbs) and incredibly strong. I moved weight for a purpose— to be a better athlete. I could deadlift double my body weight and back squat very close to double. I could bench my body weight, I could do a pull-up. I can’t do any of those things anymore. I’m soft, I’m weak, and I’m constantly jealous of other women. I hate that.
I would give anything to be my “small-big” size again. I started today. I ran this morning— just over 3 miles in 38 minutes and have already made plans to lift a minimum of twice a week with a gym buddy. I want to post before pictures but I’m disgusted by them.
I constantly made excuses, I had too much work for law school, I was tired, sore from life. But the excuses ended today. My family and I cook a good bit so it’s difficult to count calories. However, my plan going forward is to cut out desserts and sweets and to make sure I am not drinking any calories.
My brother’s wedding is September 18– that’s just over 5 months from now. As it stands currently, I was sized at a 16 for my bridesmaid dress, with a 41in chest, 37in waist, 46in hips. I am the biggest bridesmaid by 8 sizes. I REFUSE to be the ugly, fat bridesmaid that ruins the photos. The one that can’t control herself around food, who craves that dopamine rush every time she eats a piece of cake or two bowls of pasta or an entire bag of sharing size chips.
By that date, I am hoping to have lost 40 lbs. I know I can do this. I know I can be disciplined and do the hard work. I’m posting here for accountability purposes and I really appreciate any love and support or advice from others in a similar position. Thank you all who have read to this point.
TL;DR: sick of being a fat bitch!!!!! Time to quit the excuses and feel beautiful!
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