Life kind of kicked me in the face this September. In life’s defends, I put a big old target there.
I’d joined this community and despite not doing a day one post was so encouraged seeing people exactly like me and knowing I wasn’t the only one struggling and finding success. In three months I lost twenty pounds. I went from around 180 to 160 and I was so proud of myself! I started thinking more about my food, working on my mild alcohol problem, and taking care of myself which has always been a struggle. I even found a way to enjoy running with all the gyms closed and I absolutely love it.
The last three months have been a mess. I started my last term of school (my sixth term back to back), moved apartments, adopted a puppy (who I love but oh god), and started the post-degree job hunt. Myself as an individual fell to the wayside. I stopped running, stopped getting dressed up in the mornings (which I used to really enjoy) and stopped cooking. I went into checklist-survival mode. Get things done, in between dog breaks, and sleep whenever I could.
I’ve been eating out a lot more, drinking a little bit every night (I never get drunk) and have completely stopped exercising. I’ve lost all control over food. My housemates say they’re ordering take out, I can’t say the word no and when the food comes I eat until my stomach hurts. I’ve never done that before!
Here’s my plan of attack: - CISCO (using Noom) - 30 min workout 5 days/week (what I was doing before) - Alcohol ONLY on weekends - Meditate on my new issues with food (sounds dumb but I’ve used it to deal with some other issues)
But I’m going to pull things back together, because I deserve to be happy with myself and to put myself first in some things but in case self interest isn’t enough here are a few more reasons: - I need to be under 150lbs to donate eggs. My IUD is almost done and I have wanted to do this since I was 18. I’ve written whole papers about the process and still want to help another family achieve their dream. - To take my puppy on as many adventures as possible. As a GSD she’s too young to run with me, but she already spends about 40 minutes running laps of the dog park with other pups. Once she’s fully grown I want to run with her everywhere and I’m definitely going to be the one slowing us down. - It will give me a sense of control again. Covid is tough. That’s not news. With school and work and social life, I’ve had no control since March. This is a little piece I can take back. - I want to finally get my tattoo. I promised myself once I finished my undergrad I could get this hip piece I’ve been dreaming of for years, but I don’t want to do it when I will hopefully lose weight. It will be a long road but once I lose the weight and keep it off for 6 months then I can book my appointment (hopefully by then I can validate the cost of it too).
So here I am: F 22, 5’2” SW: 170/180 GW: 130
I’ve got 40 lbs to lose.
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source https://www.reddit.com/r/loseit/comments/kfgiba/time_to_bring_order_back_into_my_life_day_1/
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