Please I hope this is allowed. I need to talk and just need friends please. Last night I had a break down and a break through at the same time. As I sat with my husband crying and venting, I realized that my family doesn't give 2 shits about me (besides my mom). I have always had the thought in my head I am not good enough for anything, my older sister used to chase me around with butcher knives and other objects and call me fat. She would even sing the song "fatty fatty 2x4". I became depressed at 16 when my dad kicked me out for getting a D in science, he didn't want a failure in his house. I was a size 5 and 125lbs at 5'1 at the time. I went back to my mom's and ate and gained and gained and gained weight. I have been 250lbs at least. At my highest 300lbs. I am currently 240. I have finally decided I'm done with being this heavy and not good enough. I am ready.
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