A quick recap of the shit show 2020 has been: covid starts, 1st lockdown which kicks me out of my job, I lose my fitness levels and gain weight, things open up again, starting trying to work and get into fitness and lose weight again, and then my state gets a 2nd lockdown which shuts everything down again during the cold months.
To top everything off, I got dumped and my ex abruptly moved out, doubling all my financial expenses and putting me in a position to be homeless since we don't have a stimulus check or anything going on.
So even though I don't have the money, I've spend 100+ dollars on delivery food everyday since the break up and today I ate so much that I thought I was going to die from the stomach pain. I couldn't even stand up straight and I couldn't walk. So I did the only thing I could think of to relieve the pain: I crawled over to the bathroom and forced myself to throw up about 10 times until my stomach stopped hurting. I guess one other good thing that came out of purging is I absolutely hate sugar and desserts now. After throwing up, I could still taste a bit of all the desserts in the back of my throat and it was quite literally the worst experience I've ever had regarding food, making me feel like I never want to eat something artificially sweet again.
I don't think the rest of this year is going to be a good one. Probably not even for the first couple months of the new year.
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