Today was the first time I stepped on a scale or weighed myself in almost 3 years. I was 231.4 lbs... the most I have ever weighed before this was 196 lbs. I would say it came as a shock, but it didn't really. I know I have been steadily gaining weight over the past few years, and I honestly guessed that I would be 230 lbs before I stepped on the scale (which is kind of crazy tbh that I got THAT close to being accurate). So today, I decided to take my life back and signed up for Jenny Craig again.
I've done JC in the past (about 10 years ago), and I had a lot of success with the program. Prior to this, in recent years, I have tried My Fitness Pal, WW, IF, CICO... none of it worked for me. The structure around JC is really helpful for me. I made the mistake of skipping the maintenance portion last time, and I will not be doing that again. So how did I gain all this weight? Well...
For the last couple of years I have been in recovery for drug & alcohol addition (I have 2.5 years clean and sober). I was using drugs as a means of staying thin for a long time, and when I stopped... the weight came on like CRAZY. I tried everything. Exercise, eating healthy, etc. But when you go from not eating at all and starving yourself with stimulants to eating - your poor body thinks it's going to starve so it takes in everything it can. I rapidly gained a lot of weight and only recently slowly began to level off. I had honestly given up. I was so frustrated and sad.
But then, recently, I flew on an airplane. I almost had to get a seatbelt extender. I couldn't put the arm wrest down on the seat next to me. I. Was. Mortified. I thought about it, and I decided I couldn't continue living like this. I have tried being active, but it hasn't helped bc it is very hard for me to be active. I had pelvic surgery in May for 3 different chronic pelvic diseases so the most I can do is walk. AND BOY HAVE I BEEN WALKING. But my 3 mile walks I often take really hurt my ankles because of all the weight I am carrying.
I'm really looking forward to taking back my life when it comes to looking and feeling healthy again. I hope to be able to eventually jog/run. I tried recently, but it's just too hard on my joints right now. I have a goal to lose 70 lbs which would put me at 160 lbs (I'm 5'7''). I really am excited. I don't feel like I'm missing out on anything by doing this, and I'm looking forward to this journey. If you read all of this, thank you. I need some support.
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