So, as the title says, I’m at 20 stone (280lbs) and I’m only 17. I’m not gonna make excuses for myself or blame it on how hard my life has been. Truth is I’m fucking lazy, I spend all day playing games at my desk, I’m at college (U.K.) doing music so I don’t need to exercise that much and I eat lots of bad stuff.
I know I need to lose weight otherwise I’ll probably have a heart attack at 30 or sooner. It’s kinda funny, I fit the stereotypical gamer dude. Long hair, glasses, overweight and does nothing but game all day.
My problem is I just have no motivation, at all! I see so many people have their”moment of realisation” but I think I won’t have one , or at least by the time I do it’ll be too late.
Everything hurts all the time, I get stared at, treated differently and I just don’t care, I want to lose it but I can’t. Whenever I try it lasts for a few days then I give up or forget.
I have pretty bad anxiety so I hate the idea of gyms and going out to exercise in case I get robbed or nursed or some random shit like that. Tbh I don’t even know why I’m writing this post, I’m thinking of giving up and just quitting trying.
I hate myself for not trying,I hate my past self for letting it get this bad. But I don’t hate myself enough to fix it.
Tldr, I’m gonna die a premature death and idc
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