Growing up, my mother always told me I was overweight, even when I was at a healthy weight. I internalized the message and began trying to lose weight in elementary school. Of course, this caused me to eat more and gain weight, and now at 21, I am 236 pounds. At the beginning of this year, I decided to put my foot down and tell my mother to stop commenting on my weight (“you’d be so pretty if you lost weight; you really need to lose weight, you look terrible” etc). I also began seeing a therapist.
About a month ago, my scale went missing. My mother had taken it (honestly not sure why). So I continued eating healthy and doing light exercise without knowing if I was making scale progress. Yesterday, I overheard my mother on the phone saying I’ve stopped all efforts to lose weight and have stopped caring about my appearance (clearly not true).
That comment stuck with me so I searched for and found my scale. I weighed myself and found I had gone from my heaviest of 246 lbs to 236 lbs. It’s not a lot of weight to lose in comparison to how much I need to lose, but it’s significant because in all my years of dieting since elementary school, it is the first time I’ve lost ANY weight. I’ve never seen the number go down, only up.
I don’t have anyone I can tell, but I’m proud of myself. I feel like I’ve made a major breakthrough by managing to lose anything. The difference between this time and the past times I’ve tried to lose weight is entirely in the mindset. Before, I was trying to lose weight for my mother. Now, I’m losing weight for myself!
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