So long story short.
I used to weight 180lbs max. Life was good, i felt good looked good. Moved out at 16 and on my own. Discovered eating pizza n bad food at night made me feel happy/good. Did that for a couple years and its just gotten bad. I now weight 274lbs at 23. I hate my life. Weight gain has brought on so many bad things - Anxiety, depression. I feel out of breath all the time.
The worst part is when i go to visit my family in my old town, I avoid going out because I am scared of someone seeing me and saying something. Ive ran into a few old friends and the first thing is omg your huge. If that, sometimes ill be there and they don't even know it is me because how different I look. I need to lose this weight, its going to/has already ruined my life. I am throwing away the best years of my life to this stupidity. I feel so fucking awful ever making fun of someones weight, like that haunts me now and its mad karma.
Either way, I need to lose this weight. I have tried eating healthy blah blah and nothing. I fall back to oh one pizza is ok. Its not. And im a fucking mess.
Idk what i am looking for out of this post but I just need my life back. As I am writting this I am feeling commited. I am just done with how things are and I have started calorie counting. I did a 10 minute workout at home tonight but it sucks because I can't go to the gym now.
I am just wondering how anyone my age and my weight made it? I mean how did you just stick with it and lose weight. Its a hard thing, you gain it nice and easy but losing it is the hardest thing I have ever imagined. I know losing weight is going to help me mentally and I need that. I just need to be my old self because the new person I have become makes me sick. I hate looking in the mirror and I need to do this. How did you do it? Sorry for the vent but it has just been the worst 4 years of my life. I am fucking ready to take control.
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