This is going to sound like a bunch of excuses, but to me they’re just explanations.
Do to my history and genetics, I find myself in my mid 20’s and on a handful of strong medication. They’re mostly antipsychotics with a mix of depression and sedatives.
I wasn’t too fat in school but I do have a big frame I.e broad shoulders, large hips, protruding ribs, large face, etc.
When I started the antipsychotics when I was 13, however, that quickly changed. By the time I hit twelfth grade I was on the overweight side of the bmi chart quickly heading into obese.
It was crazy, even to my doctors how my weight was climbing so fast with no real change to my lifestyle and still being relatively active.
It wasn’t until I was at college that I started going to planned parenthood and they started suspecting that I may be suffering from pcos, which also causes weight gain along with a whole host of other things.
I’m now 25 and have a steady income, place to live, and pretty settled into adulthood so I decided now would be the time. I knew id have to lose weight before Id qualify to even see a surgeon, but wanted to know a range.
I’ve been working really hard at staying at a healthy weight for quite awhile and am extremely strict on what I eat, but I’ve been stuck around 250 for years. I can vary between 240 and 260 but mostly I stick right around there.
So I know it won’t be easy, but I figure it’ll be maybe 10 or 20 pounds I’ll have to do so I’ll cut down on calories and skip some meals, work out until I’m too sore to move and I’ll get it done.
They said that I shouldn’t really bother coming in until I hit 205. I have no idea how I’m going to get down to that. I’m super careful about what I eat, but I’m not the type to starve myself and I already work out 5 days a week for an hour and a half or more.
It really sucks because I’ve always hated my breasts. Even when I was a kid, I hated them. They’ve caused me to be so self conscious for so much of my life and they’re the one thing on my body that I’ve never been able to accept. They probably weigh about ten pounds just themselves.
Needless to say, it was a huge blow to my self esteem knowing that after how hard I’ve worked for so long I’m still that far away from being considered healthy.
Thanks for letting me rant guys, I can’t really talk to anyone else about this stuff.
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