I hate not having the Gym

Long post, more of a rant since I just needed somewhere to type all this and get it out of my head. I don’t expect anyone to actually read all this:

For me, the gym was a place of solitude. I hate running, I hate being out in front of other people. At the gym of course you get the equipment but it’s like a little haven of people who are non judgemental and there for one purpose: work out.

Not only that, but cardio is hard where I’m at. Being outside triggers my allergies BADLY, and when it’s not pollen season it’s raining here so being outside is not an Option really.

That and driving to and from the gym was integral to my routine. I had a set activity I was going to do most of my days and that gave me something to plan towards, prepare towards, structure my day around. I listen to music on the drive to and from and in the gym. It kept me inspired to learn new riffs or try to make more beats since that’s what I like to do in my free time.

Now.. there’s no gym. I tried body weight exercises I tried jump roping and I can do it but not consistently, and I don’t get nearly as much as I do from the gym. I’ve been letting myself deteriorate into fatness and gluttony and just generally being a lazy piece of shit since it’s summer and i can’t do anything outside really with my friends or other people or anywhere. I don’t want to even go outside anymore cuz I hate how much muscle I lost and how much fat I put on. I make certain to avoid all friends and family not for safety reasons #1 at this point But because I just can’t stand to be seen in my new figure. I hate it. I hate not wanting to go outside. I hate not wanting to see people. I hate not having my own place of meditation and stress relief. Literally the month I stopped going to the gym I got incredibly sick for 1-2 months.

I just miss my place man. Fuck coronavirus I hope to god or whoever is out there this shit ends soon. I can’t stand being miserable all the time

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