So, I've been on a weightloss journey before, and was able to successfully lose around 20lbs over the course of maybe 7 months. I achieved this with a strict keto diet (blegh) but unfortunately my body image plummeted with my weight and I eventually quit because I felt so physically and mentally terrible from the dumb diet I was doing.
Going back to old habits, which unfortunately includes me using food as a coping mechanism for emotions and boredom, had led me to gain that weight back and then some. I don't know exactly how much I weigh, but I'm overweight for sure. Before today I wouldn't have said obese by any measure but this has all changed with a camera.
I look.... Large. I'm just so much wider than everyone else in the photo and my double chin is crazy huge. If I didn't know better I'd say I was pushing 300lbs from my face alone. Thankfully my body doesn't look too awful but knowing people see me as that squishy marshmallow thing has really upset me. That's not how I want to be seen. I want to feel beautiful and I don't. I estimate I'm at maybe 175lbs right now but carry the weight poorly in my face, back, arms and love handles. I'm very top heavy with a large chest as well.
The issue is, every attempt to go back to weightloss has failed since I quit keto because my mind says it's pointless (I have PCOS and genetic insulin resistance so weightloss is very slow) and I hate exercise. I'll usually end up eating wayyyy too little for a few days then binge and forget it. My main problems I think are too little physical activity, carb-heavy meals, and takeout food. I end up eating a lot of junk because I'm always grabbing food here and there with friends weekly. I just feel defeated before I even start.
If anyone has their own stories similar to mine, particularly those that end with success, I'd love to hear them. I'm just so down right now.
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