Struggling my entire life with EDs, my relationship with food oscillates between "I will eat until I fall into a coma" and "I will starve until there's holes in my stomach".
I got this from my dear mother. F her
Every time i would eat I would feel guilt, shame, self loathing...
But I have been working on it. Corona helped. My partner, who has been incredible and helped me deal with my anxiety helped as well, despite being away for 3 months and 12 days. THis place helped a lot.
Well, yesterday i was feeling down. I did go shopping. I did buy a LOT of food. I was gonna binge then purge.
But I didn't.
I got home. I made myself a baguuette with ham and cream cheese, and had 2 pounds of cherries with that.
And it was OK. I didn't need more. I didn't feel guilty. I didnt need to purge. I'm OK.
And this is my victory.
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