hey guys so i am just like at a loss of what to do... i need to tell someone because i just can’t keep this in anymore
i do not recognize myself in the mirror. i look at old pictures of me from when i started undergrad until now and i do not look like myself anymore .... i am 60 pounds heavier of probably more over a 4 year span
i don’t want to see my friends because i feel disgusting. like i feel absolutely gross in my clothes and how i feel and what i look like
but i can’t send my boyfriend (who lives on the other side of the world) nudes because i feel ugly. like ugh
my friends suggested i look at plus size clothing and i felt so upset but I weigh almost 230 lbs. more than i ever have and i’m 5’4. my brother told me i looked like fiona and my dad called me fatter than my mom. my mom says ‘what happened to you’ and constantly talks about my weight
i don’t know what happened at all. lab tests are fine. i did struggle a lot these last two years with stress and depression. and picked up a slight weed habit as well as stopped being vegetarian
guys i want to lose weight i do. i know i need a calorie deficit and diet is what the key is... just am lacking the push. i wake up and maybe eat something healthy but by the end of the day i’m eating shittily again
im exhausted y’all, i can’t feel like this anymore . i just feel like i’ve ruined my body. i wore tank tops all my life now i refuse to wear them because of new stretch marks . i don’t look at myself in the mirror at all. that’s how bad it is. i need help guys. i’m so sorry this is so desperate but please help me. i want to enjoy my 20s but i can’t get my body & soul to align
sorry this is a jumbled mess i’m just frustrated with myself please help me
tldr: i feel disgusting in my body and i know i need to lose weight but i can’t get my mind and self control to follow suit
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