Quick story time. About ~4 years ago, I started a major weight loss journey here with one of the challenges. It was super successful seeing me drop from just shy of 300 pounds to about 240 pounds. I was super proud, enjoying the dating scene, and just feeling great over all. About 2 years ago, I found myself stuck in a rough relationship for reasons I don't care to go into at the moment. I fell into some SERIOUS depression and I eat my feelings hardcore. As of today, I have gotten back to the 300 pound mark. I got out of the relationship about two months ago after a lot of tears and heart ache and I'm finally ready to get back on track.
The main issue I've been struggling with is self-loathing. I hate that I let myself get back to this point. I feel like I just wasted and threw away all the hard work I did and I'm right back to being this fat disgusting slob of a man. I'm going to lose the weight again, I know I will. But last time and even this time, I feel like I'm losing the weight to somehow...be attractive for others, external validation, or just to be able to date again. I hate feeling that way, I want to lose weight for ME and not be ashamed of myself or hate myself. Not to seek approval in others. I don't know, maybe I'm just overcomplicating this and I just need to start on the journey.
Any advice, or just a quick comment telling me to go kick some ass is super appreciated. Thanks for reading!
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