Trigger warning // Binging and purging
I just wanted to post this here even if no one reads it. I’m basically going through my weight loss journey alone, and don’t really have anyone to talk to about it. I started my weight loss journey a little less than a month ago, and I’ve managed to get my weight to fluctuate around the 12-15 pounds weight loss mark.
The first few weeks were so easy, it went by like a breeze. I’ve been exercising and then going on long walks, I tracked my calories, made healthy decisions, etc. etc. Then, I started to stray from tracking calories and just give up by the end of the day. I binged today, and I was so disappointed in myself that I ended up purging. I had a problem w this prior to my weight loss joruney, and it’s the first time Ive purged since then.
I guess things are just really getting to me now regarding how tramautuzed I’ve been by my parents and people in my environment. My parents have caused me so much agony and pain regarding my body and life. No matter what I look like, I’ll never be skinny. I’ll never be happy in my own body. Weight will never be about health, it’ll always be about looks.
If you stuck here until the end of it, thank you. It’s just been really hard and I know everyone starts somewhere. I know that I shouldn’t beat myself up for a few bad days of bad choices because I’ve come far compared to my other weight loss attempts. However, I just can’t help it. I have so much hate for myself and it’s so hard putting up this facade in front of friends and family that I’m doing fine, and i’m happy. I know i’ll get to my goal weight eventually, but I just need support and I’m really glad this subreddit exists. I want to love myself but I just don’t know how.
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source https://www.reddit.com/r/loseit/comments/halxbv/does_it_get_better/
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