Hello losers,
Just finished a HIIT workout & I'm feeling feisty. Hope you're likewise conquering!
Weight by end of month (200 lbs, preferably trend weight): No weigh in this morning, 201.5 trend weight.
Stay within calorie range (1500 ish): I didn’t binge yesterday, huzzah. It was an all-day fight. Today should be good, gonna have some bocas for dinner.
Exercise 5 days a week: 30 minute lunch walk & HIIT tonight. 20/24 days.
Self-care time (journaling, working on love journals, beauty treatments, drawing 0/24 days): I’m jonsing for new work out leggings, any recommendations? I like Old Navy’s active wear especially since I’m bound to size out of them before they die a heroic, sweaty death.
Try a new recipe once a week: Curried chickpeas from dry beans, chickpea flour crepes (I helped, it counts), new recipe breakfast burritos, red sauce from semi scratch (canned tomatoes) & black-eyed pea soup so far. 5/5 weeks.
50 pages of The Body Keeps the Score: Not tonight. 0/50 pages.
No fast food or candy from the work dish: Day 22. Keeping this streak alive helped me say no to bingeing yesterday. 3 candy related lapses in judgement.
Listen to my effing body: I got out for an extra walk yesterday. Helped with the anxiety level. The weeks where I have less access to higher intensity stuff because of various domestic & working situations are fucking tough.
Be more mindful & express gratitude, avoid the hedonic treadmill: At the risk of rambling, I would like to discuss binge-eating urges. For me, the urges vary in intensity, like a spectrum. Sometimes it is a passing fancy, a split second yeah I could eat about 1000 calories of that shit. But it’s that thing in particular, only, & it passes quickly, giving way to a variety of logical reasons not to binge.
Other times, any fucking thing will do & the urges are insistent. All fucking day. The thoughts achieve the same level of distracting as someone talking to you, on your shoulder, all day while you’re trying to focus on other shit. The pressure is so constant & unrelenting it feels easier to just fucking do it. State breaks help but not always. Yesterday it just stacked on top of my anxiety level like a plate weight & sat there all fucking day. In the same position, I have binged. I probably will again. I did not yesterday. A small victory & a bigger victory in learning. When you binge, take some time to examine your behaviors around it. What were you feeling, doing, experiencing that day? How did you feel before, during & after? Try not to judge yourself for any of that either losers.
I could write more about my triggers, the feelings around it, all that jazz but I’ll spare you haha. I will encourage you to discuss these things here if you feel safe to. No matter how far I come progress wise, there are days I absolutely feel like it’s day one in my head.
But it’s not. No amount of feeling like you have failed take away the progress you’ve made kids. Even if that progress is just learning how you process this journey. Hugs!
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